Suspense, eh?

Ah, so after I let my sister out of the closet...
She was like, "I'm really pissed off right now".
But now we're good :)



I am Penn's favourite girl in the grade :). Oh, and he likes it when I hug him from behind. Perhaps he's having gay fantasies about Joe? Maybe this conversation will help you decide:
Me: Yeah, but it's like all the guys in the grade have a gay crush on Joe.
Penn: But... he's just so... COOL!

Yeah, that kind of killed it for me.

Normal, I Suppose?

AH, so today with Alice it was completely normal.
No lingering hatred.
No uncomfortable silences,
HURRAH!

I also blocked Ross on AIM & MySpace.

Anyway, Alice I have to admit that for a period of time, I was paranoid (okay, because I am a slightly paranoid person) that you were out to get me...
Yeah....

So Gage and I shared an IM today about how now we're going to try to have normal conversations. (yeah, righhhhht).

I don't have much more to say. OH! Wes is going out with Lucy now. AND HE'S STILL FLIRTING WITH CHERIE! AND SHE'S FLIRTING BACK!

Bee is going through major friend drama with Aubrey...
And Julie (my closest friend in the Stewards) is going to tell Cherie about me and Gage and our little... M.O. session. Which reminds me, I HAVE TO CALL HER!

I like to move it move it.

or i thought so.
turns out I don't...

fucking bastard-ass homo dances :/.
(i love the homosexuals so i suppose the homo thing makes it good... WHICH IT WASN'T)

i really don't feel like reliving the whole dance.
I think i'll just do really depressing bullet points to make you realise that I'm the loser of the grade and my blog is no longer worthy of being read.

• Like five guys pulled away when I tried to grind. (Penn, Chuck, someone else, etc)
• Grinding with Wes only lasted when the cabana wasn't full. Then he decided to mysteriously "get a drink of water"
• Gage was grinding with me then he shoved me off. (because he's embarrassed of me)
• Henry didn't show because he had a stupid baseball game.
• First Class got all the guys in a fucking big circle around them.

And it was crappier than that.

The good homo part: I got a really cute print dress for nine bucks.

Urgh, I also realised how much I like Henry.

Even Though He Freaks Me Out...

I talked to Will the whole time during P.E. Today.
He's fascinating and understanding. He thinks like me, but he seems genuinely interested in what I have to say. His vocabulary is outstanding. No, I'm not crushing, but I'm considering a potential best friend.
He also told me that I act older than I am which I took as a great compliment.
Yes, Will freaks me out to the hundredth degree, but not quite as much. I think its the adoring gaze he gives everyone that triggers my fear of boys who like specific girls too much. Still, he's mysterious and kind of frightening. I learned today that he used to be quite violent and was asked to "tone it down" at his old school.
Hmmm....
I'm also afraid he'll consider romantic possibilities (incredibly vain, I know. I just can't help it).
We'll See.

OH, MY SISTER AND HER FIANCEE BOUGHT A HOUSE!
I can't wait to stay there when necessary.
And I got about an hour and a half of sleep last night.
And drank four cups of black coffee.
I was jittering for the rest of the day.
SBT got my essay in an email at 5.18 A.M. so he shook his head at me at break today.

Wes, first class boy, slight acne, you know- I might have a crush on him. We hug like... thirteen times a day. But sometimes I'm also afraid he's embarrased of our hugdom. He still lets me hug him in front of Chuck so I might be paranoid.
ALSO, Chuck would totally ditch me for Lucy at any moment.
FUCKAROO!!!!
oh well....

Henry is incredible to talk to. Except he doesn't give very good hugs... And he flirts with other girls :/

I hate school guy crushes.

And I haven't been very truthful about how far I've gone with Gage. On Wednesday, we kissed again, but instead, I bit him (purposefully). Ah, it was quite entertaining. As well as this, Gage has also touched the skin in my lower... feminine parts. Not that low, but where the hair should be. (sorry i'm making you read this). During English, he also frequenly reaches up my skirt so he can pull the elastic on my thong back and snap it. AND, for the past week or two, he's been trying to finger-ish me through my skirt. Make sense? I'm not going to explain...
It's all out there now.
So yeah, NATALIE AND SYDNEY, DO NOT TELL ANYONE.