I'm Leaving (pt. II)

So I'm off to New York tomorrow.

We have to do some shopping for winter clothes before my three long months in Connecticut...

I had a goodbye dinner with Alice, Sydney, and Natalie tonight. It was good, the food and such. It wasn't really sad until I said goodbye to each of them. The dinner itself was actually kind of awkward. I still didn't feel like I got enough time to say what I wanted to say to each of them so... I guess I'll say it here?

Um... I'll ask that you only read your message but I doubt that would do any difference. I love each of you equally, though.

Alice- We have been friends for the shortest amount of time, but I feel like I have known you for a while. Our friendship has had many up and downs for a relatively short period of time, but our ups are the best... and we get over our downs with a little bit of cussing and such. I love you so much and I wish I could be at your Quince! I'm glad you are having fun at St. Paul's. Seriously, all of the stuff about popularity... BULLSHIT. I just want you to be happy. I want you to find friends who understand you and love you as much as Natalie, Sydney, and I did. We weren't the most popular, however, we had the most fun BY FAR of any fucking group in our grade. You will go so far in life, just remember me when you do.

Sydney- I think I've been friends with you for the longest if you don't include the period of time where you left our cozy little school. And when you first came back with your bitter attitude towards me due to a previous scissor fight... I'm sorry I get annoyed with you over little things. Actually, you are the best. Ever. Seriously, I don't think those fucking ribbons would get any use without you spaztically waving them all over the place. I can't believe you're almost getting taller than  me! I can tell everything to you without you judging. You're like my own crazy doctor. Eventually, I'll begin trying to bum Adderall off of you, and it's up to you to tell me no. I'll miss your talkativeness and ability to un-awkardize any moment. Thank you for always being an amazing friend to me, even when I'm being a freak. And thank you for always rationalizing situations and telling me the truth when I need it. Keep up the art, you faggot.

Natalie- We became friends over your (and now my) Angry Friend's love of popcorn. Medium-length. Although, I think we've gone through a lot. Sorry for the ending of this summer, it was weird. And I don't think our friendship will ever go back to the way it was. But that isn't exactly a bad thing... We're stronger. I'll miss you so much, you have no idea. It was hard not to cry in front of you while we were saying goodbye but I didn't want you to be sad while you were in the car. I really hope that I'll find someone else I can talk about boobs with so lightly, but I doubt that will happen. And for some reason, I'm also okay with that. Because that is something that's so signaturely you. I'll also miss the awkward, unintentional boob grazes, and also the equally awkward, intentional boob hits. Hopefully the five bajillion (just kidding, maybe like... three) kids you have in the future won't have a problem breast feeding (sorry, I couldn't help that). You'll make a great mom. And homemaker.

So yeah.

Suck it.

(said to all three)

I'm Leaving

So the cool thing about boarding school is that the week before you leave is packed. It's nice feeling busy :). And loved. (no, I'm not depressed or anything).

Even though my roommate sucks. And hates neon colours.

(SERIOUSLY, what's up with that?)

Anyway, I'm going to hang out with Calvin this Monday. Which I would be excited about if it wasn't for what I'm going to tell you next.

I had discussed Calvin's coming over with him over the phone. Essentially, the three big points are that a. natalie's 5-foot-1-ex's mom would have to drop him off; b. that or both him & gage & calvin would have to come; and c. I DO NOT WANT GAGE TO COME.

Seriously, ever since he started high school, Gage has become an even bigger asshole than normal! He's cockier (was I stupid to assume it would get better?) and a lot more annoying. So yeah, I no longer even have an odd affection for him. I just don't like him. At all. I am going to fucking kill that kid.

Anyway, he texted me on Friday.

Gage: Hey! WHATS UP!!! he's rarely this enthusiastic

Me: Not much. Um, I have to go pack. Bye. bullshit. i was walking around aimlessly through stein mart.

Gage: Why have you been so moody towards me lately?

Me: I haven't been. I do seriously need to pack, though. I'm leaving in a week.

Gage: I know, so when are we going to hang out?

Me: Um, I'm really busy all weekend. 

Gage: Can't you squeeze me in?

Me: I'll see you at the yearbook signing.

Gage: Wat about Monday?

Me: eyes widened... You talked to Calvin?

Gage: Ya

Me: Ha.

no reply...

Me: If you want to come monday, come monday.

Gage: Okay.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN "OKAY"?

DON'T YOU GET THE FUCKING HINT?!

Oh, yes, he does!

I got Sydney to text him about it.

What I've learned:

+he knows we're not fighting and that I just dislike him

+he's not actually kidding about coming

+he knows I don't want him there

+he's coming just to say "bye"

+he's probably staying for as long as Calvin is

And on top of this, I'm trying to help Taylor decide his major!

Yo Homies

I now own three pairs of dress pants.


Gross.


Sorry, not much has happened lately.
(translation- taffy is a loser)

Hanging with Nat tomorrow! (i think)
And Syd yesterday night.
(she ate 5 cinnamon rolls)

ALICE CALL ME!



Love you all :)

How do You Say Slow Down?

So I recently went on an adding binge on Facebook.
Then I added some kid named Henry S.
(he's going to school with sydney next year)
Then it all sort of went downhill from that.
Summary of our convo:

Blah blah blah,
"hey"
"hello"
blah
"you're really hot"
"oh... thanks?"
"am I hot"
"uhm, I haven't really looked through all of your pictures"
"go look"
"Henry, you fox!" (half lie, this guy isn't amazingly gorgeous...)
"thanks"
yadda yadda
"so do you have a bf?"
"um, i'm sort of dating someone" (LIE LIE LIE LIE)
"okay"
"yeah, so idk if it's exclusive yet or if i'm allowed to date other people"
"?"
explanation explanation
"oh, so do you not like him"
"i like lots of people"
"do you like me"
"uhm, i don't know you that well yet"
blahhhhhhhhhh
"i'm going to chicago tomorrow"
"cool"
"do you have a cell phone"
"xxx.xxx.xxxx (my number)"
"mines xxx.xxx.xxxx"
"cool"
"text me in chicago"
here i make up some lame excuse about only texting one person at a time.
"but you'll text me right?"
"suuuuure"
"we have to meet"
"um, okay"
"would you ever date me if we met or got to know each other better?"
"if timing works out, maybe"

JESUS FUCKER
LEAVE ME ALONE!

My Neighbor is HOT!

I JUST REALISED THIS AS I WAS IN THE ELEVATOR THIS MORNING!
OH MY GOD!
HE IS GORGEOUS! (for an Asian)

And he's a doctor!
Okay, enough ranting about my neighbor (who looks about 25 :/)

IT'S SYDNEY'S BIRTHDAY!
HURRAH!

I celebrated this at Nat's house at two in the morning.
I ran up and down her street ass naked.
It was pretty cool man.

I think this was the result of the three cups of black coffee I had.

Eventually Nat had to give me tums.

Nat, Alice, Sydney, and I went to a restaurant and ordered kickass steak.
(I did most of the ordering)
And I had the whole "I have this situation HANDLED" attitude DOWN!
Until we started talking about STDs and I commented on gnarly Gonnorhea.
Yuppp.

Happy Birthday Sydney Sex Monkey.

50th Post

YAY!
In celebration I'm speaking to my sister again.
Okay, so I'm not sure if that's a good thing.
(I still don't have my phone)

Today we had sort of a graduation chapel.
All of our teachers gave us talks and et cetera.
I cried so much.

Normally I don't cry.
Like, last year, when everybody cried at stuff, I didn't.
But now it's like WAAAAAAAHHH! WAHHHH! OH MY GA... WAHHHHHHHHHHH!
ick.

I'm going shopping tomorrow.
Nat, Syd, Alice, I WILL MISS YOU!


Hopefully the performances are over now since its the end of the week!

My Family is in the Mafia!

Okay, yeah, supreme overexaggeration.
But yeah, they seem to bribe me a lot.

My parents threatened to take away Spain unless I apologised to my father.
Which, knowing my father, will only piss him off more because I "do not want to apologise".

My mother isn't letting me go to Natalie's after graduation unless I clear stuff up with my dad. MOM, DO YOU NOT KNOW YOUR HUSBAND?

UGGG!
But in her eyes, dad can do no wrong.

Oh, and my sister went out and bought me a Burt Bees Radiance Kit. She even put it into a little purple bag and added tissue paper. I'm not quite sure what to do with it... I just want to be like, "Take your fucking kit! I want a sister who will actually side with me on stuff. Have you heard of any other fucking sister who GROUNDS their little sister? I HAVEN'T!" Eh. Yeah, she still has my cell phone.

Disclaimer: Sorry, Syd, I wasn't gonna write about this but the beginning of my post made me way depressed.
On a lighter note, I got mad at Penn for liking Cherie more than me (he does this to everyone ALL the freaking time). Yeah, but he flirts with her frequently. Taff and Cherie in the same proximity, guess who he's with? So later, on our way to lunch, he walked over to me and whispered this in my ear, "I definitely like you more than Cherie". Then he hugged me.

I floated down to lunch.


Hmm... this is really annoying. I live downtown so I'm near all the arts and stuff. It can be pretty convenient, but there's ONE thing. We're near ALL the arts. Even the ones that make noise. Like the outdoor theatre. So yeah, it's kinda difficult when I want to go to sleep early because I just hear random segments of words and everything else is just jumbled.

I'll be sleeping then:

WHOO HOO, WHOO HOO, WHOO HOO!
(instruments)

HaRoOoOOo!

Okay, yeah, sorry about the title. I've just always had the urge to tYpe LiKE tHis.

You know the dealio!



So lately Penn's actually been paying attention to me. (thank Gage!)

Oh, and I'm starting to hate Gage. This has nothing to do with the random flirtatiousness, I just... dislike his character.

It might have something to do with the fact that yesterday, he pulled out a shitload of my hair.

I pull his hair.

Gage: Pull me up!

Me: Okay

(I proceed to pull).

Gage: OW, STOP!

Me: Gage, you're so softheaded.

Gage: Let me pull your hair.

Me: Fine.

Gage takes my hair, puts it over his shoulder and BENDS FORWARD.

crack. crack. crackcrackcrack.

After like two minutes:

Me: OW, STOP!

Gage: Hehehehe.

Me: Jesus Christ, Gage, that fucking hurt!

Gage: You had it coming.





WTF? But yeah, this dislike started before the hair pullage...

Oh, and I'm also starting to like Bee & Lucy (Bee more).



I'm glad that the schoolyear is almost over. I hate all the work we have to do.... UGH, but we're leaving. And that sucks.



Syd & I are better.



Sorry for the short posts lately, I hope this one was long enough.
(not that anyone actually cares, but humour me?)

RYAN STARTED THE FIRE!

Writing a history paper about Marilyn Monroe.

Haven't actually started yet.

Slight drama with Sydney. I'm not quite sure what I think about it yet. Read about it in Alice's Blog.

I sort of yelled at her earlier.

I love Radiohead.

howdy doo dah!

AHHH!
OK(l-a-h-o-m-a), Oklahoma went really well!
I got a lot of compliments for my acting (which sounds braggy, but I'm excited!). It's sad though, because this means that school is almost over.
For field day, we our mascot is a panther. Delilah (who we had this drama with waaay back when, but now most is normal except we don't really talk to her that much...) is the panther! Oh, but I get to be her "handler!". Okay, wait, that sounds kina pervy.

The rest of my week went pretty well. Turns out Gage & Barbie are really into each other. I think it's sweet :). Ah, but I no longer have a makeout buddy. Which sucks, because I'M HORNY. Oh God, yeah, if I were you I would stop reading this blog.

I did end up getting a talk from Alice, Nat, and Syd today. Kind of awkward. It was mostly about me being... 'out there' with guys. I started to understand what they were saying toward the end but apparently there's more?

AHAHA, oh, one more thing! Apparently, Henry's parents might hate me now. Reason:
His cousin was looking through his phone and found this gem by me:
"Goodnight, penis monster."
And his cousin likes to get him in trouble.
So he told Henry's brother.
Who told his parents...
Yeah...

Hum... I think more happened over the week but I can't remember.
I have to start blogging daily again.

quit being a ho.

"Taaaaaaaafffy, hey, this is some random girl named Holly. I heard that you've been with a lot of guys. So yeah... quit being such a ho. See you at school."

WTF. I DON'T KNOW ANYONE NAMED HOLLY!
How is she going to see me at school?
And she had sort of a hispanic accent.
And the only hispanic friend I have is Alice
(who I've hurt repeatedly)
But this person had a different voice than Alice.
Still, supposedly Alice is hanging with a couple of friends today
SOOOOO... Yeah, she still hates me.
Fuck.
Guess I can't go to her quinceañera any more...

Oye, Syd, right now I'm eating a crunch wrap surpreme.

every now and then, things make sense.

I have a new obsession:
Quizno's $2 Sammies.
Lovely lovely bites of joy!

Okay, so today was an okay day.
Henry has a baseball tournament both Friday AND Saturday (two other dances).
But, I cheered up considerably after one conversation with Gage.
The gist?
He pushed me off that one time because he didn't want me to feel his boner.
I DIDN'T BRING THIS UP, HE DID!
(I'm terribly afraid of confrontation)
hmm...
part of me wants to believe this so I can have a super huge ego again
part of me simply doesn't believe it at all.

We'll see.

I have re-established friendly connections with SBSG.
Or at least acquantance-y connections (at least now he doesn't think I hate him)
I asked him something about parties.

Okay, and NEW GUY.
Seriously homophobic/antihomosexual guy, but a hot one.
Keagan.
Myspace- messaging convos.

• Medium, shiny, brown hair
• tall
• fit
• flirty
• cheats on every girlfriend he has

I wonder how this will turn out.

I thought I had more to say, but I don't really.

Also, I love my friends.

Oh, and you should read:

FireWife by: Tinling Choong.